Deja Vu

D.M.C. we have a mid 30s male Found down unresponsive Possible overdose Substance unknown Pulse is 60 and thready Respiration's 8 he's intubated And we're bagging him now Uuh B.P. 90 over palp Patient cool pale and diaphoretic Has aspirated Uuh G.S.C. is 3 We'll update en route E.T.A. 10 minutes As I fall deeper into a manic state I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate Start off with the NyQuil like I think I'll just have a taste Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate To a harder prescription drug called Valium like ya that's great I go to just take one and I end up like having eight Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak And you'd think that with all I have at stake Look at my daughter's face... "Mommy, something is wrong with dad, I think He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me And all he does is eat dorritos and cheetos And he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat." Sometimes I feel so alone I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold It's like something takes over me Soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why? I just don't know Maybe just a nice cold brew what's a beer That's the devil in my ear I've been sober a fucking year And that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fucking hear Marshall, come on, we'll watch the game it's the cowboys and buccaneers And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half-buzzed for half of the time Who's the mastermind behind that little line? With that kind of rationale man I got half a mind To have another half of glass of wine sound asinine Ya I know But I never had no problem with alcohol Ouch, look out for the wall aim for the couch I'm about to fall I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncy ball Shit must have knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I? Man fuck am I hungover and god damn I got a head ache Shit half a Vicodin, why can't I? "All systems ready for take off, please, stand by" Sometimes I feel so alone I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold It's like something takes over me Soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why? I just don't know So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ah A couple weeks go by it ain't even like I'm getting high Now I need it just not to feel sick ya I'm getting by Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die Oh ya there's an excuse you lose Proof so you use There's new rules it's cool if it's helping you to get through It's twelve noon ain't no harm in self-inducing a snooze What else is new? Fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes? Now here I am three months later full-blown relapse Just get high until the kids get home from school homes relax And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take 3 naps Just to be able to function throughout the day let's see That's an Ambien each nap how many Valium? Three And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep OK, so now you see the reason how come he Has taken four years to just put out an album beat See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing It was Bologna was it the methadone ya think Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos Your VCR tape cases with your Ambient CR great places to hide 'em, ain't it So you can lie to Hailie I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby good night Alaina Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in an ambulance They said they found me on the bathroom floor... Damn Sometimes I feel so alone I just don't know Feels like I been down this road before So lonely and cold It's like something takes over me Soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why? I just don't know