hate myself

I can say things I don't always mean When people get too close to me Don't know where it comes from, honestly And you, weren't perfect, yeah, you had your lows But I'd say you got pretty close Don't know how you could put up with me I was so caught up in my own thoughts Don't think that I understood When you said that you just couldn't take it That I would lose you for good I didn't think this over Fell back when you got closer After I just put you right through hell You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself I'd always act so selfish Had shit I hadn't dealt with After I just put you right through hell You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself We both know I might be the worst at goodbyes But I looked at you straight and I lied And acted like I'd be fine Sometimes when I care, I think I tend to shut off Like nothing could matter enough Why would you let me keep doing that? You should've stopped me But I was so caught up in my own thoughts Don't think that I understood When you said that you just couldn't take it That I would lose you for good I didn't think this over Fell back when you got closer After I just put you right through hell You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself I'd always act so selfish Had shit I hadn't dealt with After I just put you right through hell You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself So off I go to hurt you again I'll shut you out to try and forget That I'm the one who's fucked in the end 'Cause, baby, you'll be happier with someone else So off I go to hurt you again I'll shut you out to try and forget That I'm the one who's fucked in the end 'Cause you couldn't hate me more than I hate myself I didn't think this over Fell back when you got closer After I just put you right through hell You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself